Adoption

Where do I start....over the last nine years I have always considered adoption. In the last few weeks it is like it is on me. (If that makes sense.) In my heart I can't imagine a child not being loved like I was loved. Last Sunday, I had a very emotional day not sure why but my heart was heavy because of this. David and I have talked about adoption through the years and he has always said we'll see when we get to that. Well, this past Sunday as I was shedding a few tears and Dave was comforting me he said you know I have been thinking about that and he said he was ready for it. Well, as the last blog posted I stated we had our Dr appointment on Monday and that afternoon I had a patient that asked how the IVF was going and I gave him the update and somehow we started talking about adoption and he was telling me that once a week that have a child featured in the newspaper. They describe the child and the child always tells what they want and it is always the same he said "they just want to be loved." I told him I had heard about that and had looked but never found the article. On Wednesday, I was waiting for the Dr so we could start surgery and I went out to the lobby to look at the paper and see if I could find the article but it wasn't there. It is in the paper on Thursday which I did finally got to see. Along with the above there were several other things that happened the past week that was guiding us in that direction. But we are going to continue to pray and seek His guidance. Later that morning I was given a message that a patient had called and wanted me to call her back. I tried calling her later that afternoon and after playing phone tag she finally got in touch with me that afternoon on the way home. OK ...... she asked about IVF and then said Heather, God laid you on my heart and I need to share something with you. I was like ok. She proceeds to tell me that she has a neice that is 19 years old and is pregnant and is unable to provide for the baby. She is going to put it up for adoption. She gave me more info and asked that I talk to Dave about it and let her know either way. I was in complete shock. I called to share the news with David, he was just as shocked as me. I cried and cried and my mom asked why are you crying I said I was scared. She wanted to know why? I told her that this wasn't my plan. She asked, are you scared its not His plan to have one of your own.And I said yes. She said it could be both. WOW!!! WOW was the word of the night for me. It was so much to take in and my mind was going ninty to nothing. Everytime I thought of something, what about this or what about that, I would be like well that doesn't matter. There are still alot of things that could change but as for right now Dave and I are persuing this. It is just day by day. If it is God's WILL it will come about if not I am sure I will be learning something along the way. God is so good and has perfect timing to go with HIS plan. Please continue to pray for us and the other family involved.